Dances

Dances are ridiculous...
All you do is get dressed up to impress your date and spend hours doing so...
than mess all that work up by sweating all the make-up off and ruining your hair while dancing... but it's not even dancing... it's swaying to the beat... WHAT IS THAT?!
I do not know, but there is only one more dance left of my highschool career and i'm going to make the best of it.

High lights from my high school dances....


Homecoming '08



Winterball '09



Homecoming '06



Prom '08

Keep Moving Forward

One thing I have loved my whole 17 years of life, give or take the few that I wasn't able to actually comprehend, Disney movies have just shaped my world. One of my favorite right now would have to be "Meet The Robinsons"

I Just love the quote that reigns throughout the movie....

KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!!

And lately I have tried to keep that as my own quote because the past is the past it's happened and it's gone and you "keep moving forward" all the time. So in the words of Walt Disney....

They are so unprofessional!

This week I decided to put myself out there! I auditioned for the first high school production of "Rent". Thinking that it was going to very professional, I went in there thinking I actually had a chance at a part and was really optimistic. Until the last night of auditions of course!
Sadly, one of the most fun nights of performing, was ruined by a director who thought that lying to the rejected people was the way to do it. He told those of us who didn't get call backs that he didn't even know if their would be call backs and it would be casted by monday... what they didn't tell us was the people who were called back for "mistakes" on their information were the people getting call backs; and went further to the point of telling those said people to lie to other said people about it being a call back. It was acutally "supposedly" a problem on their sheet.
I believe those of us in the rejected group could have all taken the rejected if they had acutally said the truth and treated us like adults. But no they thought of our feeling. Sadly I believe they hurt our feelings more by treating us like children instead of professional perfomers.
Next time I try out for a production I hope at leased the director is a gay guy with a balls!!!!!!!!

Of course after talking to my friend Clay, who like completes me becuase he is the polar opposit that keeps me down to earth, I realized that I don't even want to be in a production that would make me lie to my friends and be so unprofessional. I can take rejection, but do it straight... don't beat around the bush!

Friendship

This whole school year has been filled with loss, rediscovering, and finding that which I did not have. Let me explain; friendship seems to have become a passing thing, something that is not perminant to say the leased, and a possession that can be lost, and found, and re found. Dictionary.com states that a friend is "a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard". Which is true to the very end, but after the affections and personal regard is gone, all you have is someone attached to you who knows you like the back of their hand and could through a wrench in your life. And soon enough, the other definition of friendship, "a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts", is only 1/3 of what is was before. With knowledge the attracting and trust seems to fall away. So is it that when you get to know someone too well you begin to not like them and than not trust them, or is it that the trust falls away and soon with that the attraction is gone? All I know is that there are those friends who think you are so close too you could tell them anything and than the friendship falls apart because of lack of trust, and those that you trust right off the bat and your friendship grows until you don't care about how close you are, your just close.
Oh and than those that say their your friend and talk behind your back about you constantly because they know you so well. I have lots of those. I don't like it. I really liked the definition urban dictionary.com said a back stabber was; "someone who pretends to be your friend; but talks s**t about you to other people". Exactly, so is it inevitable that a close friend who knows you so well will become a back stabber. Seems that way to me.
I am a very trusting person, so it's known that i will be back stabbed sometime in my life, right now I'm thinking it's going to end in high school, but I know that some people don't grow out of the cattiness of high school. I'm looking forward to those times that you can just count on someone backstabbing you instead of thinking its going to happen.
I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore, but that's how I feel. Friendship is not a constant thing, it's a once in a lifetime chance to make a unbreakable connection with someone. The only thing that can destroy it, is trying to fit into a crowd that you probably shouldn't be in if they don't except you already.