Days Like Today

Days like today remind me why I love New Mexico, why I love this campus, why I love my friends, and why I miss the others. What a day!

Running from Lions

Get me out of this place, before I cause more damage,
a small price to pay for building houses out of matchsticks;
and when things get too hot, you've got me to blame for,
every fire that breaks out in every lover's name, {so...}

Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

Sell me out I'm yesterday's old news,
phrases left on paper,
black ink bleeding through
the pages where we made our history.
Call me foolish,
I feel hopeless...

Running from lions, never felt like such a mistake
(Like a deer in the headlights)
Running from lions, never felt like such a mistake
(I won't know what hit me...)
Running from lions, never felt like such a mistake
(Like a deer in the headlights)
Running from lions, never felt like such a...
(I won't know what hit me...)

Don't forget, we've got unfinished business,
stories yet to unfold,
tales that must be retold,
and I regret not knowing when to put an end to all this madness,
keeps me wanting,
keeps me wanting more...

Nostalgia

I've never had a day like today. Where you have two totally conflicting emotions because of coincidental occurrence. It's a confusing and weird feeling to be nostalgic and happy in the current place as well. Don't ask me how it happened that I should be nostalgic for a little more than four months ago and totally cool with where I am now, cuz if you asked me I wouldn't be able to tell you... I guess it's the bloody decisions in college that change your life forever. Still don't know if I've made the best, or really stupid decisions... but I hope it's almost time to figure it out.

cocoa puffs

have you ever just eating cocoa puffs and felt like everything was going to be ok? I just did. I had the weird feeling as the first ball of cocoa crispy hit my tongue that today was actually going to be a good day.
I've been struggling with the realization that every decision i make here really does effect my life. If I pick to take this class will it better me as a singer, if i date this guy or that guy, if I do or do not do something. Everything can change the course of my life. Whether I like this uncertainty or not i'm not sure.
I've been trying to rely on my rocks for guidance... Alyssa, my mom, my dad, Isha, Clay. But it seems like there's something missing, and although I know what it is, I still can't seem to let myself fully fall into His arms again. Maybe this is why so many people fall away during college. Because they feel the uncertainty of life and feel like God is not the person to put their trust in. Or maybe because they already fell away and life is just too uncertain to trust again.
All I know, is that the cocoa puffs I had this morning comforted me in a way I haven't felt in a long time. Lets just hope the sugar high will allow me to feel unconfused all day. :)

Monday Mornings

I just hate Monday mornings. It's the morning when you wake up and you relive your weekend and you decided you probably should have done more homework or something. Today it was... i probably should have gotten anything at all done. Oh well nothing you can do now except realize you have three days to memorize and perfect a song for Wednesday and write a paper, as well as perfect your Italian on another song which is directly linked to voice placement (if i'm singing correctly). But hey it's college what else can you do from 10-1am?! hahahaha at this point the song I love college comes into mind :)

My feeling for a new name

I changed the name of my blog. I'm not sure what exactly made me change it. But I think I know why it changed from My Cage to Learning to Fly. Because instead of being in "my cage" as in home, I'm "learning to fly" learning to life actually in college life. It's a weird feeling going from feeling couped up to someone set free to do what she pleases... not sure yet if I entirely like it.I guess we'll see what life has in store for this lesson i'm embarking on.