the change

over this last weekend I decided to make a major change in my life,

I rededicated my life to the Lord.

And although my "best friend" has pretty much just ignored me this whole time

unless I was with my boyfriend, it's ok, cuz it shows that she can't be there for

me when I need her.

And my boyfriend is having the hardest time adjusting...

I decided to pledge abstinence again,

and he's not liking that concidering I used to give it up

a lot. And now he's getting non.

I'm actually completely devastated that this doesn't seem to look like it

will work out, because I love and care for him so much.

As for the other people in my life,

I started flocking towards those who know God.

God has completely made me want to be around them and fellowship with them.

I went to a bible study and it was great.

I think i'm going to church on Sunday.

And I stopped smoking for those of you who knew,

I was a stoner and had started on the slippery slope already.

This change is the biggest and the hardest I've done,

I'm still struggling.

In short, if you read this, which i'm pretty sure no one does, know that I need prayer for strength and self control.